(Cover) - EN Showbiz - Cheryl Cole has spoken about feeling “betrayed” by her ex-husband in the wake of their split, but has vowed to remain “graceful”.
The Girls Aloud singer split from soccer player Ashley Cole in February following allegations he had been unfaithful with a string of women. She filed for divorce in May, and it was finalised last week.
Until now Cheryl has remained silent about the end of her marriage, but she has now spoken of how deeply it affected her.
“Yes, definitely I do feel betrayed, but I've got to take everything that's happened and learn from it. I accept that that's a chapter of my life that's finished,” she told the October issue of Vogue magazine. “And I've just got to be grateful that I've got so many good things going on. I have. And there's no children, you know?
“Some people's lives fall apart. Of course, it's heartbreaking, but it's not anything remotely like it could have been and I'm very, very thankful for that.”
Cheryl is now determined to look ahead to her future. She has often spoken of her desire to start a family, and it is still something which is foremost in her mind. She thinks becoming a mother would make her life more “healthy” as she would have someone else to focus on.
“That's definitely something I want to achieve. It's the toughest job in the world - but I know it must be the most rewarding too. I'm ready now. I'm 27. I'm a woman, not a girl any more,” she explained. “Thinking about yourself constantly isn't so healthy. I suppose that's the point of having children, isn't it? Being able to live your life through them instead of you, having them be your motivation? That's the 'right' thing, I'm thinking - when you love someone more than you love yourself. That's what I think about my mum."
The star’s work has helped her get through her tough time, and she spoke of her love of her career. She gives every job her all no matter how tired she is, explaining she is always thinking of ways to improve herself.
“Night-time, that's when my brain starts ticking over,” she revealed. “I'm frightened of my mind at night. I find myself racing, racing, racing. Sometimes I wake up and think, 'What was that about?’ It's so vivid.” (C) Cover Media