(Cover) - EN Showbiz - Vanessa Paradis feels like her mind isnt fully hers anymore since having kids.
The 37-year-old star has 11-year-old daughter Lily-Rose and son Jack, eight, with her partner Johnny Depp. She says nothing could have prepared her for the intense love she felt for her kids as soon as they were born, admitting not a second goes by when they are not in her thoughts.
Motherhood has totally transformed Vanessas perception of the world, and she is sure the transformation is permanent.
It changes your behaviour. Your personality doesn't change, but you're more cautious of what you say and how you say it to start with - so that already changes things. My mind is not completely mine anymore. I used to be able to concentrate and achieve things. Now I find it much harder to focus, because it just seems that half your brain doesn't belong to you anymore, she explained to Interview magazine. My kids are still little. Maybe it will change more when they're older, but I doubt it. I can't say a big sentence on what exactly changed in me when I had children. I mean, I don't feel that I do a tremendous effort to try to make this place better for us and for our kids right now. But I make little efforts- and I try to make them every day.
Vanessa was born and raised in France, and cherishes her childhood. She comes from a very close family, and was an only child until she was 11. That meant she spent lots of time with her parents, and also playing on her own.
While some might have felt lonely, Vanessa loved it. She used to retreat into her own world and make up fun characters, and enjoyed donning disguises as part of her games.
I guess I was quiet. I'd spend a lot of time with my parents. They'd take me everywhere - to their friends' dinners, poker games, everywhere... I was just there, she said. If I was not with them, I was with my maternal grandmother, and we would do a lot of gardening together. And when I wasn't doing that, I was playing by myself quite a bunch, which was fine. I loved it. I loved to put on disguises or just put on a tablecloth or whatever I'd find. (C) Cover Media