(Cover) - EN Fashion - Cheryl Cole is trying to learn how to meditate because she wants to improve her wellbeing, but she cant get the hang of it.

The Girls Aloud singer worries she is too paranoid, and even feels anxious when she is at home with just her mother Joan Callaghan. She worries it isnt good for her health to be on edge all the time, so has started trying to come up with ways to make herself relax.

Recently Ive been trying to meditate But I cant seem to get it, she explained. My mother does it, and I really think that actually may be the way forward for me, but the thoughts keep coming in. How do you stop them coming in?

Cheryl admits she always holds part of herself back when she is in public. She recently got divorced from soccer player Ashley Cole following claims he was unfaithful and was hospitalised with malaria earlier this year, and is used to her life being played out in the limelight.

She refuses to complain about that, but thinks it is the reason she is so pent up all the time.

Thats the price you pay, I understand that, but Im only little, Im only 5ft. 3ins. And some of these men with their cameras, theyre very big, she told the British edition of Vogue magazine. Like, I know this sounds mad, but when Im out there, Im constantly paranoid I might have one of me private parts on show by accident. (C) Cover Media